If you're going to be weird, be confident about it.

Preface: I have to laugh at myself. Because I've tried changing, and I struggle with so much self guilt, while I try to be something I'm not. It's a horrible cycle. So laughter is my form of self-acceptance. I've come to this conclusion about myself; God surrounded me with very level headed, quiet-natured, "peaceful" people. He surrounded me with them, because...well... I'm not one of them. And sometimes, I REALLY need those people to keep me grounded. During those times of "discretion" and quietness, I feel uncomfortable. Not because I'm not spilling my guts to the world.. but because (follow me here) I have something to say, and sometimes, it just needs to be heard. A "calling", if you have to have a name for it. My life experience can (if I let it) be a reassurance to other women. But not if I don't share it. 

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I mentioned in the last post that my delay in updating had been security related. After the security issue, it was drama related. And this mama, as you may have guessed, has no time for drama! So life continued and I sat tight for a bit, until the dust cleared. This isn't to stir the dust again. (I know, my "grounded" friends are holding their breath right now...chillax!) I'm not perfect, but I have nothing to hide either. That's mainly the reason for my return in blogging! 

{Side Note: The common tone, from those that emailed me over the past 5 months, was that my posts and doses of "hey you're not the only crazy one", were missed. Thanks, it is flattering to be missed. To those that thought I removed them or blocked them...I didn't!!! The blog is public, so either it's down, or it's up. If it's restricted access, you'll know. (Honestly, I wouldn't have a blog with this theme and make it restricted access. Kind of pointless). So there... it's clear!}

Maybe my "walk away" attitude about the past 6 months isn't the correct way of dealing with it. But I have no guilt. Walking away (after I tried other routes) was really how I felt it needed to be handled. It doesn't mean I hate others. It simply means, I respect me.

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All I really need is some room to
Breathe

{Another, very important note: this has nothing to do with my marriage. Mister and I are perfect! ❤️❤️}